Martyrdom

I found a certain part to be very interesting. The whole paragraph where the child talks about becoming a martyr. The line "She could stand to be shot but not burned in oil. She didn't know if she could stand to be burned in oil or not." I agree with her because I think the whole point of martyrdom is that we are not prepared for it in any way. If we were prepared for martyrdom then it would just be an arranged death. About a week or so ago I was talking with a friend about this topic and he was telling me how his dad interpreted it. That in the scriptures it speaks of God giving you the strength for the moment to be able to withstand the pressure and pain that is all around you at the time of your persecution. Now the next part where they send in lions after her and the lions are then converted so that they do not harm her and then they try to douse her in oil and burn her but that fails too is an example of glorifying martyrdom. Is it wrong to glorify what has happened in the past as being able to be your future? Is it wrong to imagine your own plan of how you will die for what you believe in? Isn't the whole point of going through this to go along with God's purpose and not your own? Too often I see people who are afraid of martyrdom and that is not okay in my head. I thoroughly believe that if you cannot see yourself dying for Christ then you are first of all not truly in love with Him and two you have no faith that through the time of pain and suffering God will not leave you there alone and he will be the one who helps you get through the whole ordeal.